Stephanie, I just want to say that I admire you for being the kind of daughter anyone would be proud to have. I have played cards "Gin" and Poker for a long time 24yrs regular and with the extreme highs and lows comes the rush and let downs that adrenaline addicts only understand. I do understand the demons of addiction and the way you explain it gives your father and others like me a sense of human frailty. I stayed clean for 18 years (I am 42 yr old) only to fall back into the fast life and replace one addiction for another. I became a Nurse after recovery and hate the "grind" of life and often chase after the thrill that I feel your father chased or as I feel was born too (and even more scary he obtained it). My 12 yr old son was taken to another State by his mom (kidnapped) and I rarely even get to talk to him. I am still clean but miserable (you speak of this feeling I have now well when describing your father). You were lucky to get to know him and I hope and pray I will get to see my son more some day (his Mother obviously is not as nice as yours). I am sucessful but unhappy except for the one thing in life that gives me joy and that is my Son. I know your Father must have felt the same way about you and he is looking down... or better yet... through your eyes and reaching others like me. Please keep it up... not everyone understands the way you do. I did not like the movie and I do look forward to reading your Father's book and seeing a true story about his genius and what drove him. He was blessed to have you and I am sure your Mother played a major major role in your excellent nature as well. God bless. [email]kentrn@bellsouth.net[/email]